wher will be love when there is no trust..
wher will be trust when u dont love?

nah.. both comes together.. but sometimes.. u will onli have one thing.. is u love but u dont trust...

u love tt person.. u want to trust him wholeheartdly.. u tried.. but he cant seems to giv u the trust and the sercureness.. u love tt person.. u will willing to giv a try to trust him.. but its realli difficult.. not because u dont love him.

wanting to gain someone trust is not jux by saying.. after u break the person trust.. should'nt u take ur time.. ur everything.. try to do to gain back the trust u lost?
should'nt u not lie again.. askin me not to doubt u... but wad u doin is doubtful to me.. and u wanted me to not doubt u.. isnt it funny? wierd..

trust and love is not smth to be claim by saying.. its easy to say.. but issit true?

why? things happening are so contrasting.. one day can happen this.. one day can happen that.. mayb u did not do anything.. mayb u did.. mayb wad u say were lies.. mayb wad u say is the truth.. how the hell am i supposed to knoe..

its impossible.. who will admit if the person tell lies.. sayin" ya. i am lyin to u"

wad u told me on tt day.. on tt faithful night.. wads tt? nah..


"sometimes the best way to lose someone is to grab hard and not know when to let go"

sometimes, learning life in a hard way isn't easy..

long holiday ya?

In lan shop noww... lolx.. and why the lan shop wanna open 24 hr.. dots.. learnin to play dota.. -.-" cox if not i will be seatin beside him and doin nth.. haha.. so decided to learnt.. so jux played with the comp jux now.. lol.. -.-" single player la! ...

so.. shall continue frm last post bah.. went to buy noodle for my bro and me.. reason: he wan eat.. idiot.. haha.. so went down to buy.. called wei hao for help.. so.. was alraedi 330 le.. so was thinking to go down collect pay and go SP do my elearning as i din do yet..

so went home.. bath.. eat le.. was on my way to clarke quay.. when i just reach attica, (blog till here b jiu ask me go off le.. -.-")

so now was the 13june.. 750pm.. at tpy now..

cont" elfee was askin me wher my bf.. and i say he not here.. den when walkin up to attica 2 stairs, saw him at the stairs.. so wanted to collect pay.. but sarena not there.. so went off to liang court.. on our way saw adrain.. so went to mac together..

ard around 545 walked back to attica.. took our pay.. short of $128! din knoe until sunday, the 11th, went to zuma tt time.. jane told me got three PH.. so she help me calculate our pay.. after taking pay, me and b jiu walk home loh.. went to plaza sing..went to eat the mee fen.. den b buy me ice cream! wohaha.. den went to shop around carrefour.. buy things.. groceries etc..

reached his house le.. and he told me to go home.. reason: his fren wanna come help him dye hair. was damn unhappy.. cox: told him my house comp cannot open ppt slides.. all tt.. giv him some attitude.. this and tt.. wadeva.. went back to tpy... den send him sms to giv him the reason why i not happi.. den later he din reply.. den he sms me askin me still angry not all tt.. den ya.. fine.. miss the last train to his house.. so.. cab there..

meet him at the prata shop.. eat.. den he went to play dota.. went in at around 1.. waited for him till 2.. and was abit sleepi.. plus need to do elearning.. so decided to went home first.. and go home do the elearning loh. den waited for him till 6+ he den come back sia.. at first tell me 3.. den 4+ tt time say comin back le.. all the way.. -.-" did not do the measurement.. sian..

so after he finalli reached home.. yeah.. go slp.. haha.. -.-"

friday, 9th june.. afternoon.. wake up.. do my acc de assignment.. submit.. than went to work at 1030.. till sat morning.. went back to tpy.. took transport to somerset mrt.. den b realise he din bring his ezlink.. lol.. so went back myself..

went to train le.. he called.. his keys in my bag.. dot dot dot.. so he went dota.. and i go home.. take thing le.. went to the cyber game find him... awhile.. went home.. slp..

wake up late.. around 6+.. ready up.. and we headed to chinatown for his fren wedding.. at furama hotel... hmm.. the dinner was normal bah.. mayb i dunno the pple there.. abit diff frm wad i attend always.. haha... saw alyssa there.. and turn out tt her bf.. knoe b.. world so small.. sat at the same table.. haha..

after weddin dinner.. alyssa bf send us to cine.. wanted to watch movie de.. but all selling fast.. den eunice wanted play mahjong one. but she workin.. so in the end.. she went home cox smth happen to her mum.. and so.. me and b went to prata shop.. drink teh.. and he got smth wif his family too.. so went home and take my attica uniform.. take a cab home.. wher he go sk.. den he took another cab...

so reached home ard around 2+am.. supposingly meetin eunice. but she say she onli wan play mahjong.. dun wan go out.. so ok lor.. din went to play.. than the thomas mia.. -.-" bluff me.. haha.. end up went to clarke quay.. meet ah siang.. he pay for my cab fare.. lol.. cox his fren drive ma.. but din pick me up.. and din ride also.. cox rainin..

din manage to get in to MOS.. so walk clarke quay awhile.. called jo.. and she at MU.. so three of us went down to mu loh.. reached there le.. went in.. siang fren ordered two jug bbc.. den later 5.. mu close le.. din knoe how to dance.. lol.. so.. well..

went to ECP.. cabanah there.. or cavanah... wadeva... went there le.. ordered "ard the world" den heineken.. his another fren came.. ordered spring rol no more le.. tt guy ask me order ice cream. den i say " u treat me ar" he say he go ask.. den he come back sayin cannot. lol..

den siang pei me go buy mac eat.. tabao back to cabanah.. eat the macmuffin onli.. hashbrown giv him.. den later drink.. play the game wif tt of his fren.. -.-" drink most of the heineken.. yuck..

later on me and siang shared cab.. cox his tt fren go home earlier le.. reached home.. coma sia.. after bath..

sms him when i was at mu.. no reply.. called him at one pm.. no ans.. wake up at 6.. call him.. 615 call again.. and he MIA! called up eunice to see meetin not.. she also MIA.. fuck.. den sms wh.. 630 b called back.. finalli.. after so long.. and he says tt elfee wants him to work at 7.. so he gettin ready go work le.. so ok loh..

meet up wif wh and eunice at 730 initialli.. but we were late.. so three of us reached at 8.. went to marina square to eat.. the food court.. grilled chicken.. den later walk to clarke quay.. walk ok.. haha.. than i went to zuma.. tts when i knoe my pay got less..

went to work.. at 1030.. sunday! gay night loh.. workin at attica too.. whoo... shiok.. haha..

till 3+.. close cashier.. 4.. walk to cupage wif b.. cox bernard, pq and kerrie.. they ridin.. -.-" haha.. meet them there.. and so .. after eatin.. i landed at the lan shop. =D

nah...

hmm.. currently at tpy..

monday.. the 5th.. after i slept till 8+pm.. slack at home.. den later online.. den realised i miss the last train... damn.. so took a cab down to clarke quay.. went to zuma to find b.. he off work le.. and we went to ms to eat ba kut teh.. and walk around ms.. and walk home.. so online and run through wad assignment for elearning.. and b fall asleep.. haha.. den later awhile.. than go sleep le..

afternoon wake up.. b cook fried rice.. so eat le.. than wash the things.. awhile later went to sleep.. than he went to work.. so stayed at home slack.. than later meet thomas and ahsiang.. went to clarke quay to pass b the key.. after that travel to lavender to eat "wan tan mee" and thomas damn suey.. haha.. his hp tio bird bomb.. -.-" so zhun.. haha.. than later went off.. to fishermen! ordered one bucket of strobe again.. drink.. play the qing wa tiao.. -.-" and tok loh..

than around 2+ went down to cine.. play pool.. after tt.. they send me home le...

went home.. slack abit.. slp..

wed.. same as tuesday... bb cook fried rice.. den wake up at 11+pm to eat.. when i slept at 6am.. -.-" so after eatin.. and washin the utensils.. was damn sleepy.. so fall asleep.. till dunno wad time baby wake me up tellin me he go meeting.. den later went back to slp.. till 3+.. wake up.. online.. den 5+ he says he reach ps le.. den asked me go down.. so went to bath.. and walk to ps.. meet b... he was at the arcade.. later on went to foodcourt to eat.. just dunno why dun have the mood to eat... den when i wanted to eat the fish slice noodle, the queue damn long.. den went to indonesian there.. also damn long.. even longer.. so dunno why.. don wanna eat loh.. went back to seat.. den later baby went to buy the indonesian one for me.. =) den after eating.. walk home.. actually wanted to meet eunice go take pay.. but den jane say pay not there yet.. so din take lor..

den later she want meet me.. so i went down to tpy.. and she meet me there.. went home take my passport.. mummy and ah ma there.. so mummy was tellin me not to go to JB.. so wadeva.. i took and keep my passport faster.. =D and so later went to kbox loh.. till 10+..

ah siang and kenny reached le.. so we went down.. take ah siang de one seater bike.. -.-" dots.. seat till so pain.. lol..

travel down to bedok north.. she go up take passport.. and than went to joo chiat.. meet up wif thomas.. den later kopi den come.. eat noodle.. den go second link le..

went in.. pump oil.. see them race.. never go eat.! -.-"

den around 2+ went out of jb.. some went home.. so left me thomas and kopi.. went to jurongville.. but there cannot go in.. dunno why.. so went down to labroder park.. slack there awhile.. and was damn hungry.. so kopi go home.. me and thomas went to eat.. at bugis.. and he see me eat.. lol.. den later he send me back to tpy..

sms b.. when i was on my way to eat.. eat le than go home.. and he den tell me to go back to tpy cox he need to go back to seng kang to do some family stuffs.. and its 4+am... so well.. so i say tml mux before 1pm take pay.. he say ok.. meet me 12+ at attica.. den so i say ok.. call him tml...

and now its goin to 3pm.. and he still haven call me.. neither did he reply my sms when i send him before i went to slp at 8+.. askin him to call me to wake up when he wake up.. so think he is still sleeping.. called him twice just now.. and no pick up..

yeah.. so he MIA till now.. neither did he sms me yesterday night when he go sengkang.. =) nice... but hopefully he never lie.

hmm.. and so.. on sat or sun.. forget when le.. went to read jac blog.. his ex gf.. and she says

"think I allowed myself to let my mind wander a bit too much last night, and it kinda wandered a little too much towards the area where I didn't want it to go- Relationships.

I had been very selfish these days, and despite Richel wants me to perservere and try to work things out again of some sort, I've decided to say a firm 'no', and leave us in the memories of the past.

I realised even though he appreciates me now, and even bore me the hope that he might love me if I were to perservere enough. I realised I don't need all these at all. Going through all the ups and downs just to achieve love was really too much for me, especially when I'm the one going through all alone.

He brought me all the way to the moon, and then time and time again, I was left to fall back down Earth myself, and everytime, the hurt just got worse.

I know exactly which kind of guys I want now, and I have someone right in front of me who fits the bill perfectly. I just want us to be ready before we try anything stupid again. At this point of time, I knowI shouldn't compromise myself.

It's hard to describe how nice the feeling is, when you lose sleep over tests, and all you need to do, is to press the dial button. He'd always be there to pick up the call, no matter how late it was, and even listen to the nonsensical whines about school, life, work and sometimes relationships.

When granny passed away and I'm all alone, someone is there, even when they are nothing but messages. At least, someone bothered to reply my pleas for attention and care.When someone messages you to make sure you reach school for your tests.

When someone tries to be mean to you, because he doesn't want to hurt you yet again so quickly. When he'd do whatever he can, so that you'd be safe. When someone guarantees your safety with his own.When someone gives you head massages cuz you're so freakin lousy, you vomit after a long run and feeling all groggy.

When someone proves you wrong that you're heavy by carrying you across the bridge. When seeing the stupid grin makes you stupid as well. Doing stupid things together, laugh at really lousy singers together and everything else.It makes me feel cherished, like, I'm important.

So, I'm going to be selfish once more, so that I'd be happy with someone I feel would bring me my real happiness. Someone who'd bring me to the moon and stay with me, watching the stars from above.

I'm sorry, but we have to move on, Richel."

well.. after i read it.. was kind of unhappi.. the first thought which run through my mind is tt he ask her to patch or smth.. so went to asked him straight.. and he says no.. he says tt i rather go and read a blog and believe wad she writes than to believe him when he is my bf beside me..

so wad i ment was.. she does not have a reason to lie in her blog.. for wad right.. plus she dont even knoe tt richel has a gf now. and who wil go and lie around in the blog..

well.. he says he did not ask her patch.. but they did quarrel and tok over some matter in the past.. saying why this and that happen.. reason? i dont knoe.. dont seems that i did call up my ex bf and quarrel wif him..

and was not really happy.. this thing has been botherin me quite sometime... tt day when we went to play mahjong at euncie house... ya..

its not even three weeks.. issit that he haven settle down his problems.. his heart..

yeah!!! exams are over!

just finished work not long at attica.. now at b house.. yawns..

aniway.. exams had finished..

so.. on wed... had pm1 paper.. kindof forget wad paper it is about.. haha... den after tt.. went home.. rest a little.. online.. measurements kindof nth much.. so slack quite alot.. lolx.. at night.. around 12+.. thomas come fetch me.. wif ahsiang kenny.. went to fisherman village.. hell.. damn hungry there.. but their last order no more le.. so went to costa sand wif thomas to get mac to eat.. tabao for them also.. den went back to have some drink..

left there at 3+.. knoe b not happi.. cox i exams still go out till so late.. sorry.. next time wont le.. den later kenny went off.. den they pei me go tabao food at somerset for b.. credit the uncle there first.. not enugh cash.. den buy food le.. reached home.. he dun wanna eat.. so well..

drink... den later slp quite late.. wake up le.. he went to eat wad i brought ytd.. den he angry.. so never pei me go eat.. so went to skool myself.. went to centerpoint to get a pancake.. could not finish.. den went to skool le.. kindof hungry.. went to buy a chicken and egg bowl.. eat half.. den went in and had the measurement paper.. after measurement paper jiu went to t14 there find wei hao.. den we went down to bugis to meet eunice! cox its her bday.. so went down le.. was kindof feeling unwell.. went to walk around bugis... go seiyu de children de arcade play.. den later finalli went to coffeeshop opposite bugis.. had a hot drink.. milk.. den jux vomited wad i drank ytd.. abit.. so kindof funni..

den walked over to marina square.. went to have pizza! den later went to arcade to pplay... haha.. hotd and soccer.. lol..

after tt jiu went home.. wei hao and eunice send me home.. =D so nice.. haha.. den later reached home le.. b jiu say "why u come up.. thought goin down eat.." -.-""" den rest awhile.. wait for him finish playin the silli soccer manager.. den he jiu called up eunice.. say together go eat.. so eunice called edwards to come to town.. den later he go pass to jaq her stuffs.. den i went to meet eunice and edwards.. den later he come le.. we jiu went to the market place to eat.. well.. so see them eat..

after tt went to play pool.. lay till 12+.. den go home..

and the next day.. i could not manage to wake up! wake up at 820 when my paper starts at 830 lor.. so chiong a cab down frm somerset.. $7+.. reached klass at 9am.. and ya.. dun reali knoe how to do the paper..

den after paper.. went home.. to slp.. -.-"

at night wake up le.. ready to go work wif b le de.. and the rpg is such a bitch.. well.. fuck care.. den later we dint go work.. went to eunice house.. lolx.. for wad leh.. alex was there.. so i table.. 4 pple.. haha..

den later after two rounds alex went off.. and we went to bedok 85 there to eat.. after eatin was around 4 le.. so went back to eunice house and slp.. wake up earli in the morning.. cox her bf comin.. lol..

den we went to bedok interchange.. eat.. eat le.. den he says he wanna go walk around.. end up we went to princess.. brought the tix for davinci code.. and while waitin for the show to start, he went to play dota.. after the show was 3+..reached home at 4+.. and den slp.. bb never go work.. he not feelin well.. so i went to work.. was workin at service bar.. wif xiao bai and kerrie.. no much pple.. haha..

den finished work le.. went to b house.. call him no ans.. thought he was sleepin.. later he pick up.. tel me he went to 7-11.. dots.. wait for him to come back.. den he cook the noodle.. eat.. watch hary potter.. the goblet of fire.. den slp..

sunday night.. wake up.. went to PS.. eat.. den went to work.. gay night leh.. workin downstairs. no pple at all after 12+!!! so me and irra is like takin turn to go break.. duhx.. borin.. closed aat 3.. and i got scolded by a gay outside k.. damn.. aniway.. went to 7-11.. buy thing.. den walk back to attica.. wait for b to finish his stuffs... den we went down to take the transport.. den walk over to eat prata.. plaster! den later he wan to play dota.. so go loh.. dozed off there aniway.. haha.. 5+ went in.. and finalli.. 7am he finished playin le! lol.. den walk home.. so sleepi.. bath.. den slp..

den slp and slp.. suddenli baby wake me up.. to eat the pasta.. which he cooked.. haha.. so sweet.. -.-" well.. eat le.. den was too sleepy.. so doze off again.. after eatin.. den later baby wake me up and tell me he go work le.. yeah..

so slp till 8+ den i wake up.. online.. haha.. and till now.. bah!

trust?

hmm.. had a worse saturday night i could say.. botherin wif things which are settled openly.. but.. deep inside.. nah..

saturday was like sleepin the whole afternoon.. after opening door for b.. slp till noon.. wake up le.. was kindof tryin to study.. but the lecture notes seems not to be goin inside my head.. den later b went to work at ten plus.. and he was obviously veri late.. as he need to reached there by ten..

so went to meet jia yao to study.. as he workin at paragon tt night.. met him at 11.. and went to tcc.. but end up.. din realli study.. was like.. throwin him my problems.. haha.. so after tcc closed, walk up to dhoby gaught. saw zR!! and accompanied her to buy tix.. went to mac to catch up..

went to clarke quay at 3am. a nice time ya.. drinking lit.. terrible night.. having so much thoughts running through my mine.. maybe till now.. well.. met her at 6+ am.. met him later.. went home...

slp at 8+.. till afternoon wake up.. die also mux study.. haix..

din realli knoe how to do this two paper.. damn slack.. three more papers to go! haix..

sometimes.. u realli makes me wonder if u do love me.. i dont knoe.. i dun dare to ask.. or maybe i dont dare to knoe.. though u are wif me.. but is ur feelings here together too? bah..
i chose to forgive and hopefully forget.. its so difficult.. but i hope everything is worth it.. baby.. dont tell me u love me if u dont.. if u dont love me just let me go.. dont say forever if it wont happen.. dun promise me if u cant do it. all i wan is the truth from u.. and tts it..

happened to read ur bullentin.. 22may.. hmmm.. wonderin hu is tt u misses and love so much.. though is definately not me.. so like wad u admit.. u dont love me at all till the day u realli told me ur heart out.. realli hope wad u say tt night is true.. -25/05/2006-

can someone jux fuckin kill me? nah..

disappointment.. exams..

thursday.. went to sch.. had pmm presentation.. not realli tt good... after pmm.. went to tabao chicken rice to klass.. and eat.. and had alvin to do the tarot cards thing.. nth good aniway.. after tt.. is was cp ma.. and the lecturer let us all go home.. haha.. so went to print the hardcopy of the ppt slides..

klass was dismiss around 2+.. called him.. and he does'nt want to meet me.. well.. went home.. waited for zr to reach tpy.. went to mac.. find her.. tok.. study? nah.. -.-" which was our initial plan.. but i not in the mood to do so.. saw grandma bringing my brother to mac.. duhx.. so buy i help to buy food for him.. den grandma and bro went home.. while i accompany zr to the train station..

read three blogs.. a long ones.. knoe mani things.. well.. but it doesnt seems to be so simple isnt it.. aniway.. ten plus bb called.. say he off work le.. so went down to find him.. he knews theres something wrong.. but i din have the courage to say first.. so walk silently on the road.. i want to have some bite.. hungry.. so went to the foodcourt.. saw his ex gf there.. well.. he saw it too.. but he jux kept quiet.. so while walkin home, i finalli said it out..

had a long tok.. drink.. tok wif one of my fren.. nah.. a casual fren.. jux so nice he called me.. so.. chat till i fall asleep..

next morning.. i knoes smth.. smth which makes me disapointed... yes.. jux this one word..

i chose to stay.. i chose to forgive.. but for her.. i dunno how to face it..

and she knews i know it all.. well..

went down to tpy, den to somerset meet helen, take thing, den to tp, find cat, and back to orchard.. meet b.. had dinner.. went home.. and he went to work at ten plus..

hopefulli everything turns out to be fine.. promise me.. never will it happen again..

another two days gone.. haha. -.-" aniway..

think monday.. went home slack.. den go PS.. at ps.. waited for bb frm sentosa go dhoby gaught.. takes him one an a half hr! haha.. -.-" waited.. shop a little.. brought a top.. on the phone for one hr plus wif weihao and eunice. den he finalli come.. so damn hungry.. and finalli.. 9+.. i can had my dinner.. lolx..

tuesday... mornind bb send me to skool.. den he waited for mr till lunch break.. two hr.. haha.. den later went to find him.. go lab do proj.. den eat.. and he go off le.. =D after klass.. went to meet eunice and bb at bugis.. and he gone MIA!

den went to walk around.. go play pool.. etc..

today.. wed.. wake up le.. eat breakfast at somerset wif eunice and bb.. den went to skool.. reached skool at 930.. first lecture 8-10 leh.. so never went in loh.. saw daniel at FC1.. so went to mac there.. wait for helen.. den go klass.. sian.. after skool skip gems.. haha.. many reasons.. so take a train down to bugis.. and bb go mia lor.. haha.. waited for him awhile.. den take train to eunice house play mahjong.. while waitin for johnny to reach we play 3 pple de lor.. sian. den he and his fren finally come le.. won ten bucks! play till 9+ and go eat.. den take cab back.. goin to chiong the pmm.. die..

results of not goin to skool often.. haix..

exams comin! damn..

so borin.. now was at skool comp lab.. haha.. waitin for the next lesson.. and so long never update le.. so comin back bah.. last two week was vesak dat.. so had quite a long holiday for me.. haha..

was workin on thurs, fri and sat.. thurs after work fri morning went to temple wif eunice and wei hao. den fri after work was sat morning went to xl chalet.. play one round mahjong.. jiu take cab home to slp le.. to eunice house.. sat night as usual went to work..

monday. remember i went to meet eunice at bugis.. slack and do nth there.. 8+.. went to chel de house.. slack and drink there.. the stupid baileys plus cranberry juice suck.. cox is like tofu.. haha.. den never get a good slp.. jet lag again..tuesday they send me to skool.. eat mac at SP.. den jiu went to klass.. and they went off... afternoon time.. too tired.. skip afternoon lesson and went home to slp.. haha..

so for wed.. go skool.. skip gems.. went to the car repair center and it takes my whole afternoon.. duhx.. den went home..

as usual thursday and friday go skool.. borin.. haha..

fri afterskool wanted to go back mjr for pop one.. but was too tired.. so din went in the end.. went home to slp.. and fri, sat went to work.. haha..

monday.. today.. first day come skool.. reached at 9.. make up lesson at 8.. accounting! damn.. and dunno wad it is tokin.. the klassroom so small.. not enugh chair.. -.-"

aniway... its 1.27 le.. haha.. my another lesson is at one thirty.. so goin off le! haha...

it takes a lifetime to build a friendship but a minute to lose one.. never ever fall in love with someone hu is ur bestfren.. haha.. hmm.. i dont have u to make me feel guilty.. i dont need it.. wad official bye is that.. ha.. for me.. i feel kindof childish to say this thing.. yes.. and i will take it as a lesson also.. never ever go wif someone who is ur best buds.. from the past, i think that promises can onli be broken between a couple.. for now.. i realised.. it is not.. even friends lie to u.. get lost..

den meet gaode.. go clarke quay.. den order two jug.. beer sux.. haha.. den later yeow come.. den later eunice den come.. they din drink.. i still help him drink some of the shirly temple! -.- haha.. den later 7+.. cab to marina square.. go ktv.. sing till around 10.. den go eat.. eat le.. jiu go home le.. haha

hai.. sian.. so pple.. dun need to bother to continue to read le.. cox it will be sleepi and borin.. unless u got nth to do.. and cant get to slp.. mayb it will help.. ha.. -.-

aniway.. fri.. sian.. cab to clarke quay.. halfway.. eunice call.. say sarena the accountant will be goin to lunch.. and will not be able to giv out pay.. so.. wadeva.. immediately ask the uncle drop me at orchard.. get down.. take train home. slp.. at night went to meet eunice. take pay.. go eat.. den go work..

sat.. morning she come my house.. den got mother day celebration.. after tt.. went to bugis.. shop around.. den go to work.. chiong cab go sia.. reason: late.. heng reached there still on time.. damn..

after work went to her house.. slp all till 2+.. den alex come.. den yc come.. den i wake up lor.. why leh.. MAHJONG la! -.-
yeah! i won!! haha.. around 17bucks.. ya.. after tt.. went to eat.. den jiu go home le.. around 10++? i think..

next day.. dunno wad happen to my sleepin time.. not right leh.. cannot wake up at morning.. wierd.. aniway.. skip morning lesson.. go bread talk buy one bread one orange juice.. den cab to skool.. den havin lessons till 5.. went to orchard..

meet eunice at there.. went to metro buy two top.. ask the manager lydia help me buy.. haha.. staff purchase.. buy le.. go B1 buy smth to eat. a pancake frm jollibean.. my second "meal" and soy bean.. after tt.. hs come le.. we jiu went to balcony loh.. ordered one jap traffic light.. magarita.. followed by two tequila shots.. den he order one bucket heinken.. den eunice order magarita also.. den drink abit of heinken while play 5-10.. -.-"

seat at the taller chair.. dunno wad i thinking also.. called a few person.. a few person called me.. ya.. tokin rubbish.. later i seE her suddenli vomit.. i jump up.. den he help her down loh.. den holdin on to two bag.. seat downstair awhile.. den take cab to bedok 85.. around 10+?hmmm

eat.. his unhappi.. and angry.. walk away.. reply wif wierd sms.. find him.. cannot find.. call... hp not on.. so.. no choice.. go to ps.. report.. hai.. den in the end nth le.. found him.. walk back.. to playground.. the two man come.. questioned him.. ask us brin him back to there.. den walk back again.. seat there wait loh.. lucki never tio charged.. haix.. den jiu go back the playground.. me and her go shell station buy thing.. come back.. his gone again.. den after a few calls.. is he reached home le.. so kindof relieve.. so jiu go eunice house slp.. slept at 4++..

did not manage to wake up go skool.. argh.. den tt stupid woman.. say go skool 1-2.. 2+ cab home.. in the end waited till 5+.. so bloody hungry.. den ask her fetch cat.. den they two finalli reach le.. go eat at 85.. finalli.. eat le.. went to her house.. wait for her.. cab to tm.. watch MI3! halfway the show stop.. -.-" tech problem.. dots.. den go buy ice cream eat.. den the thing ok le.. so went back to the cinema.. watch le.. went home.. take train..

thom come le.. so jiu went down.. after i do the ppt halfway.. go geylang eat.. meet his fren.. den on the way to jb.. suey.. at lor 12 exit.. the bike buang the bicycle.. dots.. so stayed there for quite long.. long story.. lazy say.. den jiu went to simei.. den his fren go ubi.. den we go tpy eat.. den go home..

reach home le.. went to do the ppt.. till 4+.. tong till 5+.. go lie down.. never want to slp.. but dunno why.. fall asleep.. got two morning call frm gao de.. den i still morning call my fren.. and! i dunno why.. doze off.. 1030.. auto wake up.. jump up..

not feelin realli well.. went to see a doc.. two days mc.. den went to skool for presentation.. den tell teacher i on mc.. after presenting go off loh..

tired..

hmm.. yeah.. after tt day brin diesal to walk.. went home.. slack.. could not get to slp.. slack, on the phone to around 4+.. decided to go balcony.. there got me, tiff, kay, xiao bai, leonard, azmi, doug and one more guy forget his name.. lol.. anwiay reached there le.. awhile doug jiu went off le.. den stayed there.. they opened abs vanilla ... den around 7+.. went to somerset to have breakfast.. den jiu go skool.. so tired.. den skool to 5.. immediately went home to slp...

next day.. could not wake up at 6.. so woke up at 830.. reached skool at 10.. for measurement.. and gems.. after skool.. go tpy.. eat pizza.. den go bugis meet hs and eunice.. walk around.. den 10+ go home.. on call a cab.. reached home le.. around 12+ went roundin.. to serangoon north and loyang.. den go home.. reached home.. eunice was usin my comp.. me nth to do.. so dozed off.. slept.. could not wake up next morning..

din go skool again.. haix. den slp till 3+.. slack.. go bank and its close.. go home.. slack.. went to ntuc buy thing.. now slacking at home again.. life so borin..

tml got skool at 9.. hopefulli will go... and i mux go... -.-" hmm.. realised mani thing in this few days.. even things i have not seen or wad before.. or maybe is i myself think too much.. ha.. i dunno..

-get lost-

martel and mahjong!

jus reached home not long.. borin.. so. hmm.. ya.. din went to work ytd... as in sunday night.. too last min.. and i was sleepin.. haha.. din realli bother. but one hr ten bucks sia! 7 hr.. and my 70 bucks gone... so wake up le.. meet up wif eunice at bugis.. wanted to take cab.. but it is so damn long que.. so took train instead.. and i was late for 20min.. haha.. so went to eat at bugis junction. chicken rice.. lolx..

after eatin.. wanted to cab to paradiz center one.. but den no cab.. kindof "lu chi" ytd.. took sometime to figure how to go.. after callin jo.. -.-" so went down to paradiz.. cabbed to tanjong pagar wif eunice and yong.. go there de dunno wher.. aniway.. quite mani pple.. me, eunice, jo, yong, bakero, tiffany etc.. dunno. lol.. den alot of places full.. so went to one.. think is reds or smth..

den they open one bottle of martel.. was kindof seh.. -.-" play 5-10 wif janeson.. and jo.. den later seE them play dice.. to around 1+ jiu go home le.. actualli went to eunice house.. merlion sia.. damn.. reached her house.. den lay straight on the bed.. haha.. was tokin on phone.. to 4+.. den later.. morning le.. dozed off.. slp till one..

wake up alreadi went to eat lunch.. nearby... den later went back.. did the CRS tutorial.. finalli.. and the deadline was three days ago.. than do another one.. pro count.. din go tutorial last week ma.. den do while waiting for hs and alex to come.. play mahjong! today so suey.. lost alot sia.. but heng he win.. haha.. so was kindof covered.. -.-" bad.. but after covered he still won.. haha.. hs and eunice la.. two winner..

after mahjong to around ten plus.. went to 85 to had dinner or supper.. den brin diesel go walk.. den jiu went home le...

so sian.. tml skool at 8.. shit.. ....

why is love so complicated.. two person in a story is never enugh.. hmmm..

morning! hmm.. not realli in a good mood now.. hmm..

but aniway.. frm ytd.. wake up at 5+.. went to meet kay and tiffny.. that stupid kay make me wait bloody long at tpy.. den take mrt to somerset and wait for tiff.. accompanied him to heeren.. to buy his shoes.. den we went to cine food court to eat.. eat le.. went to starbucks to slack.. after slackin.. cabbed to work... as he starts at ten.. so me and tiff slack at the staff corner there.. den went to start work half an hr later.. workin at courtyard.. quite ok loh.. den after work.. as usual... today went up to count tips.. slack at attica.. went to 7-11 wif tiff.. buy green tea.. den went back again.. ate some "you tiao + soya bean"

after work.. today morning.. went to eat breakfast wif tiff, jeremy, douglas and leonard.. jeremy drive... den i took douglas car.. cox jeremy is a hectic driver.. LOL.. went to Mr bean cafe at somwher near town.. but dunno wher izzit la.. eat... tok.. rubbish.. den later took jeremy car home.. heard smth.. but dunno izzit sayin me.. feelin damn... arr.. wadeva..

so now reached home le.. think not workin tonight le bah.. pat last week say ask me work.. till now haven even sms me my workin time.. and she alreadi sms the other.. tonight need onli 6 cashiers.. so enugh pple le.. so should be damn free later...haha...

.........why the ending is always the opposite...... not intrested to knoe anything now.. other den tt..

99wan!

tired! gonna go slp later after i blogged.. haha.. had the sudden urge.. cox nth to do.. -.-" though got some tutorials.. awww..

aniway.. this two day.. as usual la.. so thurs slp till 2+.. set alarm clock le.. my hp actualli.. think it was noisy so i pressed off and went back to slp again.. haha.. aniway wake up le.. slack at home.. den later went to meet hx and ben when they reached tpy.. went to pasam malam.. den eat.. den go popular.. and there is this fuckin bitch.. hu is so damn arrogant or smth.. think popular she open one.. the story go this way :
after each of us brought a A3 file.. went to cashier to pay.. and dunno she is trainie or wad la.. den got two one chinese and one idian.. so she put the three files into this one big plastic bag.. and so i request for two more to plastic bag.. and she says : one plastic bag so big not enugh ar! " nbm... i stunned.. so i din speak out.. den the chinese lady told her got three person.. den ben and hx say nvm.. dun need the bag.. so went off.. and i turn back.. knoe wad she do????? she DIAO me!!!!!! LOL.. -.-" fuck right... ahhahhahaha..

den jiu went home.. den put thing le.. go meet yong.. seE him eat kfc! bluff me say wan go pasa malam..in the end complain veri hot.. den go eat KFC.. den later he eat le.. i went to mos buy milk tea.. den later accompany him go lor 1 there see doc.. den jiu went home le.. reached home.. slack around.. den at night went to meet jo.. den go walk walk.. den she go home le.. den went to meet bd, xiong and thomas.. den went to amk to wait for thomas.. den later took his bike instead.. den went to 99wan.. the "mount fabor" u knoe.. haha.. den later go there le.. went to geylang eat.. den go home.. reached home about 3+ bah.. haha.. den jiu go slp at 4+.. actualli dun intend to slp one.. scare fri cannot wake up.. but got tempted.. cox got 3 more hrs.. and yes.. i did not wake up.. though got a few morning calls.. LOL..

den frimorning.. gt waken up by jo call! den later eunice call.. so tok for quite long.. and ended up.. could not fall asleep.. go go online.. chat wif jo and cat.. angel also.. hmm.. den later went back to slp.. haha... awhile jiu wake up le.. den slack at home.. went out at 5++ to meet up tiff and eunice at city hall.. to go work.. so went to attica first.. den went to eat tori Q at liang court.. rather den the stupid mac.. yucks.. den later eat le.. slack by the river side.. den 8++ go work.. workin in pos 2.. haha.. funni.. -.-"aniway... after work was damn hungry.. as u knoe attica food not nice one.. haha.. so din eat.. waited for tiff and eunice to knock off.. slack for one hr plus there.. dunno how i spend my time also.. haha.. den later went to eat wif tiff and leonard at somerset.. ask the transport send us go.. so eat le.. take train home.. bath.. till now.. haha..

tired of skool

back! hmm.. was sayin till i went to work last sat.. so sat went to work.. was at lilypad wif kay and adrian.. and den adrain went in to courtyard.. and was funny.. got strawberry milkshake! haha.. and he was like so damn suey.. whole day never saw douglas.. and once he ask me look out for him douglas.. while he start to slice the strawberry.. douglas came out! and we din saw him for the whole day sia.. lol.. after work waited for eunice wif tiff.. slack at attica.. den later took transport to eunice house..

sunday morning.. waited for her to bath all tt.. cabbed to cat house.. get my bag and my tsquare.. den later go home.. den went to orchard to walk around.. never buy anything other den a honey stick.. -.-" den jiu went home to slp..

monday.. skool starts.. went to skool.. at night.. got some problem.. ya.. meet hs.. den go marina eat.. eat yoshinoya. wanted to buy the box frm lg.. den hu knoes is a name card holder.. lol.. den din buy loh.. go arcade play my game.. den go tpy de kbox till one plus..

den tues.. did not manage to wake up.. wake up at 8.. was late for one hr plus.. after skool go home.. meet him at tpy..

wed.. skip morning.. went to gems klass wif tracy.. sian.. den later went to bugis meet eunice.. walk around.. etc.. den went to heeren.. the person not there.. so went to fareast.. den later went to press money.. den tiff reached le.. so went up to meet her.. get my thing done le jiu went to eat.. ate prata at cuppage.. not nice one sia yest one.. so cold..

den later 9++ take a train to tanjong pagar.. den cabbed down to neil street.. meet up wif jo.. than there got her bf and another two fren.. den one go off le.. den later went there sit and tok .. after that went to another side one.. den 3 like tt went to eat dim sum.. at deskar road.. ate a little.. den cabbed home.. haha.. finali saw that woman! lol..

aniway.. today.. another day.. it suck.. could not wake up.. had problems.. fuck.. dun even feel like goin skool cox its already 2+..

sometimes it makes me really wonder wad are the terms of friends.. true friends.. hmm.. really after much things which happened.. is like.. true frens need to accept hu u are and not u to change to make them accept u.. but now it seems to me like.. the frens which i trust the most in my poly life turn out to be veri different.. jux because of the things which i gone through which makes me change.. i knoe its for my good.. but why so differently.. if the friendship is to be kept.. or maybe its jux lack of understanding or wad.. or izzit they have not gone through or wad.. i dunno.. sick of goin to skool.. tired of everything.. hu will really understand me.. not even u.. but i believe everything is ur own choice.. no one can force u to be hu u are.. u can either accpet that fren or u dun wan it.. because i believe true frens will...

tired days...

hmm.. skipped skool on tuesday.. reason.. overslept.. wanting to go for afternoon one.. but overslept again.. so wake up at 5.. meet hx at somerset there.. went to return uniform and get our pay.. after tt.. went to tpy.. eat mos burger.. later went to meet eunice.. shawn they all went off.. den walk around.. slack.. den she come my house and play wif my brother.. lol.. den mama come fetch him le.. we brin him down.. den went to mac.. eat.. den she went home..

wed.. went to skool.. sian.. so after tt.. meet hs @ city hall.. went to PS to buy things.. den go tpy go home take cash.. den later cabbed to amk eat chilli crab! yeah.. haha.. after tt.. walk a little.. den take bus home..

thurs.. wake up late.. lucky dad was at town.. so asked him to fetched me to skool.. managed to reached school at 10+.. late for half an hr.. den after lesson.. which ends at 4+pm.. went home. bath.. meet eunice at city hall.. take bus to liang court to meet wif tiffny.. went to eat ba kut teh at river valley road there.. after eating.. went to liang court 7-11.. buy barcadi breeze.. drink by the riverside.. sweet right.. lol.. aniway.. after drinking tiff start work first.. den later eunice start work.. den pat call me go start now.. so initialli should be 10 one.. so start at 930.. at lilypad.. the bartender was kay.. so ok loh.. den after work at 3+.. slack... got hershey pie! haha.. douglas buy one.. haha.. eat a little.. den got heiniken promotion ma.. so left quite many tint.. so drank some.. not nice one.. lol..

after tt.. did not take transport back.. 4+ went to eat mac wif eunice and tiff.. later took the first train home myself.. they took cabbed..

reached home.. bath.. online.. den jiu go skool.. went for ms yong de lecture.. and it ended two hr. heng ar.. den after tt was so damn tired.. went home to slp.. wake up at 6+.. cannot even wake up.. force myself..

went to liang court meet the girls to eat.. mac again.. ya.. yucks.. den eat le.. i start work at 9.. so went to work first.. workin inside pos 2.. so quite ok loh.. lucky no problem wif the closin.. haha.. den was so stone.. transport come le.. take home.. slp.. till now.. eat le.. later goin work le! haha.. cya!!!

skool starts.. bored

back to update.. could not get to slp.. haha.. and nth to do..

so.. time flies back to april 12! went to work.. and suddenli feel giddy.. so decided to went back.. so was waitin for tiffny to reached.. and so called hs.. and so he and his erge come fetch me to eat.. den go home.. go home le.. rest awhile.. back to normal.. cant slp.. so eunice and her sis they all at orchard ma.. so she cabbed down to my house den cabbed to her house.. meet up wif edwards to take the vodka bottle.. den went to eat at chaichee there.. eat le.. den take bus back to her house.. slp till next day..

went to work at 11-6.. den went to eunice house there.. den meet hs eat breakfast.. den later eunice went to her ah ma house.. so me and him walk around.. den later slp.. eunice came back.. den he go work. den slp till around 7.. nearli late.. haha.. reached work at 10.. work till next morning.. go home..

sat.. workin baggae.. it sux.. aniway.. after work was sun monring.. so went to tracy house.. eat breakfast.. den noon her fren come play mahjong.. play till night.. meet up wif eunice.. tiffny put aeroplane.. haha.. den later take mrt to city hall le.. decide to meet hs.. so went to eat at cafe cartel.. den jiu went home..

monday.. first day go skool.. was kindof sian.. ya.. mani reasons.. haix.. aniway.. skool finalli ends at 430.. took a train wif hx.. den i take to city hall.. went to meet hs at cityhall.. go MS.. den watch the "black night" ok loh.. not so bad. but dunno wad it says at the last story of thailand.. den later went to eat at sakae.. den go home..

so.. tuesday.. a day.. i cannot wake up! wanted to go skool at 1.. but den.. overslept again.. damn.. so never go loh.. den later meet hx at somerset there.. went to return the uniform and take our pay. den jiu went to tpy de mos burger to eat.. eat le.. went to meet eunice.. shawn they all went off.. so accompany her go buy slipper.. den go eat.. den go my house.. and she was playin wif my brother.. -.-" den later fetch my bro down le.. me and her go eat mac.. den later she went to find her sis.. while i go home..

and online to now.. tml another day.. a long day.. not realli tt long.. but lesson start at 8.. which is the most er xin part.. haha.. so mayb tryin to go slp now.. hopefulli can wake up tml.. haha.. bb!

long time no blog.. plain lazi and no online for quite a long time.. haha..

aniway.. frm the last post.. sunday.. night.. meet eunice and xin go play pool.. den go to xin house play mahjong.. won 10bucks! yeah.. till morning.. went to tp wif eunice.. meet hs go eat.. den later reached eunice house le.. wanted to slp actualli.. but ended up pei her go rebond hair.. till 4+pm.. went to attica take my pay.. den meet edwards.. den went to kura take pay.. den went to penisular plaza.. den later edwards go home.. den meet hs @ city hall.. went to watched ice age.. den eunice cabbed home.. den me and hs take train home..

reached home at dunno wad time. aniway slack and slp till next day 6+... meet xin go foodcourt eat.. den later meet up hx.. at 9+pm.. den went home.. den 12+ went to meet eunice and edwards go bedok 85.. eat.. den go eds house play PS2. watch vcd.. den around 5+am walked all the way to bedok simpang and eat.. the honey prata there sux.. den later cabbed to bedok giant.. went to buy the things for onigiri.. den later reached eunice house.. went to catch a few hrs of slp.. wake up.. cabbed to sentosa!

went to sentosa wif mani pple.. got eunice, shawn, kenzie, john, zhao, joselyn, andrew, johnny and a few frens of theirs.
rain abit.. den later leave sentosa at 5+.. went to marina to eat.. den later went to esplanade to play.. but andrew they all went off.. left shawn and guys.. den ya.. a unforgettable day.. -.-"

aniway later me and eunice went to somerse.. she waneted to eat her apple crumble.. but dun have.. -.-" but still stayed inside swensens.. den later cabbed home..

reach home.. slp.. 12 + wake up.. wanna reg gems.. but no avail.. so slp back.. 5+ wake up.. den reg design appreciation.. den next day.. fri and sat workin.. den sat night went to meet edwards at bedok.. den went to meet tiffny at raffles place.. went to bq bar for interview.. den later went to eat.. den tiffny go work first.. me and eunice went to kinokuniya.. went to attica pass tiff the plaster.. den went kura find katsura-san.. she passed her the pen.. den went to eat mac.. den go work..

den sun.. went to suntec wif eunice.. buy my adidas bag.. den went to eat.. den later meet up hs.. den went to cans cafe.. at bugis.. den later slack to 12+.. cabbed back to bedok.. meet PA for mahjong! den later they went off.. me slp at eunice house..

next day.. wake up at 6+pm.. went to rebond my hair.. den went to meet yeow.. go ktv at tamp.. den later jiu ask yc and bs to play majong.. played till 7am.. den went to eat at bedok.. eat le.. they went off.. den me went to eunice house wait for her bath.. den went out wif hs.. went to orchard.. den to tpy.. den to bugis... den go tpy eat mos burger.. den jiu go home le.. slp...

till now.. lol.. reason.. ==>> haven slp for more den 30hrs ma.. lol.. gonna go work later.. sian.. today only me workin.. bored..

after a long time!

after a long time! finalli saw cat and angel.. haha..

hmm... sat.. waken up by their calls.. i overslept la.. too tired.. lolx.. so initially meeting them at 2+.. so.. end up i reached at 4+.. meet them at mos burger bugis.. den later walk around.. chit chat.. den later around 7 mum came.. went to find her.. den went back to starbucks again.. den 7+ angel go off.. so me and cat walked around.. den went to eat at yoshinoya.. after eating.. went to take a bus to clarke quay... and.. i saw my xiao di and sunny at bugis jux now!!! haha....

den went to kura.. changed.. look for eunice.. went to eat wif shawn and eunice.. mac.. but i din eat.. lol.. waited for them.. and went to attica.. work at lilypad again.. nice place aniway.. lol.. peaceful.. after tt.. off work at 4+.. closed cashier at 3+.. wif sarena.. yeah.. everything tally! den later went in to like kind of help out.. yeap.. den later 5+ transport came.. reached home around 6.. wash clothes.. den online! todays supper was.. rice wif chicken.. as usual.. dont need mention le.. haha..

goin to slp later.. kind of energetic now.. sian.. workin later..

my work place time clashes! damn..

happi april fool day!

tired! damn.. my cashier short of 70cents! haha.. got covered by the tips.. hmmm. went to work after a whole day slackin at home.. reach there around 8+.. worked at lilypad today.. wif edward awhile.. den kay.. and another guy.. closed counter at 3+ wif the help of pat.. wonderin wad time i workin till tml.. cox i says i want to start at 11! haha... due to some reasons.. aniway.. got a .. of ----- foc! reason: kept secret.. eh.. sian.. today food was chicken chop or nasi.. so i chose the chicken chop.. not so edible la.. aniway.. fill the stomach and the rest gone into the bin.. hehe.. took the transport home.. reached home at 5+am.. now is 6+ le! goin to slp soon.. workin tml.. goin out tml.. yawns..

hope tml will be a better day.. and APRIL FOOL MAN! update more tml.. if i never slp.. eeek.. bb.. =D